Cold droplets of rain hit my face.
The smell of wet dirt hit my nose, reminding me of the present moment.
It was sprinkling rain on the day of my grandparents' funeral.
I then hear umbrellas open from behind me.
There were other people who knew grandpa.
I wasn't sure how many knew him but it didn't really matter to me.
I was practically in my own head thinking that I could've been better towards them.
Most of them greeted me and apologized for their passing.
What were they sorry about?
If anything it was my fault.
I could've prevented this happening if I was just there for them.
My mind raced with thoughts like that.
My hand balled into a fist and gritted my teeth.
I was mad, not to others but just myself.
But then I remembered the note and just kinda froze.
I wanted to blame myself for this but that would go against everything grandpa told me.
I wanted to believe his words but...
Grief doesn't listen to reason.
I genuinely wanted to but..
I feel that the grief might be too much too much to hear anything.
After the funeral was done I went back home using an Uber.
I decided to take a few days out of school at that moment.
Now it's been about a week since the funeral.
I came back the next week after my friends made jokes about me dying and everything.
I didn't say anything and just pretended to laugh with them.
Though the rest of the day wouldn't be the same as it used to be.
I spaced out in class for most of the time and didn't work unless I was called out for it.
But what made it worse was during lunch.
While getting my food, I wasn't paying much attention to my surroundings and bumped into another person by accident.
Before I knew it the guy started to beat me.
Why? Well, it didn't really matter.
It was over something stupid.
The staff had gotten him off of me and made me go to the nurses office.
The sounds around me were dull to a point where I didn't even know where I was going.
In a way it felt like i was in a dream
But the pain of getting hit kept bringing me back to reality.
Parts of my face stung like a bee had just stung me.
I also thought the guy was sent to iss i think.
But it didn't matter to me, it wasn't like I knew him anyways.
After the school day was over my friends decided to go hang out at nearby fast food restaurants.
McDonald's was the place they chose to hangout at.
Jun Liu, Alex's girlfriend, was joining as well.
I wasn't sure how to feel about that, but I tried to pay no mind to it.
While hanging out with them I noticed one thing on her face.
She would always glance down at her phone and won't say much to the conversation.
I told them that I was gonna go to the bathroom.
Since we were sitting on stools it didn't matter which direction I went to go to the bathroom.
I walked behind both Alex and his girlfriend and glanced at her phone where I was able to see it.
She was texting a guy named Caleb with heart emoji next to the name.
When I looked at it I tried to think it was a friend.
But then I went into the bathroom and kept replaying what I saw in my head.
The more I thought about it, the worse it became.
Was she cheating Alex of their relationship?
Did she truly like Alex?
Why is she doing this?
After some time I came out of the bathroom and glanced at her phone again.
She was planning to break up with him after high-school ends.
I looked at her face which had half of a smile.
This confirmed my thoughts right then and there.
I wanted to say something but if I did, I know that they'd most likely side with her.
I told myself that I would talk to her about this when she's alone.
I hoped that this wouldn't ruin everything but again...
I couldn't have been more wrong.