I woke up with a clear damn vision. In that room.
If that wasn't a dream then... How I am here? Being here in someone else's body.
As I was kept pushing my head further to learn more.
What's next? If i was dead then how i am still there. What happened after that.
My head started to nipping gradually which made me felt more pain. It's unusual i barely react with pains of this body but i couldn't control it. Like as far i am hitting to reach at the edge, my soul trying to leave from this body.
Suddenly i stopped moving, calmed down. Deep breath. Without noticing my left hand automatically rubbing my frons and eyebrows and the pain slowly releasing.
I understood i just need some time, to find out about the mystery and what's up with that island. As far as I know when i reached here at least I knew I was dying but sudden realization hit.
I committed suicide too. I took my own life that time too.
As usually living as that girl and getting knowledge, adapting twenty centuries mind set up. I barely could believe all those. Maybe those are stupid dreams. Maybe I am just too mentally ill that I started to creating things and dreaming about them clear. Though i hardly trust any doctor or psychologist too. I don't know but an old raged hate always on me toward human's. And I was so obvious to everyone about that. I surely not acting one of them and kept claiming I am not like them.
The parents were also pretty tensed about the sudden change of their elder kid and mostly they were not that sensible to stop pushing her in misery.
It sounded funny to me to just taking peoples own life for being depressed. But day by day I started to feeling it's really pretty hard to move on and ignore them. But sure I am not that much weak to harm her through emotion's. It doesn't get count for me. But this body sometimes stop's like the mind gave up already.
After that more often the trouble started to keep inviting me, but i can't say no to them. Just a simple nerd bullied girl became all cold, maniac, rude and fighter boyish girl. My body barely acted like girl's. But thanks to the generation it doesn't count something weird with earth's point of view. Still few nagger's got always gut's to keep advising while my one death glare make's them not to dare say any word longer. My face appearance and behavior now completely changed. Though I never acted like a spoiled brat but I became the mother's beloved and the father's hatred. Because i understood, she is also a lady who's barely living in this world with her cruel husband and in law's.
Day's barely passed, but in a glance it's already been seven years I am living in this body here. Though saying at a glance is irrelevant because in those year's the thought of giving up, killing this body, escaping from here kept popped but I did hold myself, clenching my teeth. Because I still couldn't found out why I am here. But the Vision's and Dream's were unstoppable. Same gasping night's with painful dream's. But the several one I used to seen before stopped maybe three year's ago. And it was obvious that it's just the pain and scare's which left until i let it go.
Just a huge monster like man, Coming toward me. I was running in a blood flooded tunnel with dim orange light's. While my running aren't beating as that thing's huge body stepping slowly. And I fall down covered in blood while i notice in his both hand, my Papa and Mama's head.
Every time I waked up with sweat as it was really true but sure those weren't. It's just the fear that kept ghosted me. But to my surprise I unlocked another vision of my past life.
When I myself don't even believe in those. I barely believe in religion's too. I always seen myself different from the human's. But still the human's trust issue's left, so all i believe in a god the creator . No one else more no any religion. Sure for me to worship a god and pray, I don't needed to choose a religion.
After graduating from high school I don't wanted to enroll for college's but i did for one law school and dropped out next year. The thought of education and certificate for idiot's poked my head because lawyer's never owned a private jet. I was barely managing to fight with my own term's. But i am pretty matured for not to do something which ton's of people doing out there.
One day my usual spot of getting consolation started to feel empty. I feel normal not the chill's not the existence. Suddenly I remembered last night how i said to the family convinced them not to suspecting something and do a ritual. I said them there were no one I am just spending my time alone for clearing my mind. And sure I felt it's totally empty now there. I bursts into tears. It's unexpected. Sure there wasn't anyone. It was all my imagination then why I am taking it serious but my promising heart kept saying at least someone was there. Comforted me unlike today. I just wiped down my tears left the room. But my mind kept saying,
Once you stop believing the thing will disappear. The thing exists which you believe.
But I kept confronting me. Speaking under breath.
It's just my imagination for comforting me. Though i cried until my eyes gotten swollen and became asleep as the golden light of sun reflected through my room filling the air's into mist heat.