The bus arrived and I got into the bus. I sat on my usual seat, left side of the window, while thinking whatever happened today on set. I really don't know where this thing is going, I am just moving and going with the flow. Then I think about the scene we shot today, the way he looked into my eyes with so much love. I know he was just acting in that scene, but I still felt it. Still.
Then I took out my phone from my bag and did my most favourite usual task. I opened Weibo and there I saw some of his fan pages posted a video of him coming out of his vanity van after getting ready in the periodic look for his period drama series that he is shooting nowadays. So he is shooting so many dramas in a single day. Look at me, who is just going back to my dorm after shoot, and look at him—just going on another set for shooting. Such a hardworking person he is.
After that when I scrolled down, I saw a video of him playing a scary box game, the one where you have to put your hand inside that box. He got so scared, like he was thinking some horrible thing will come out of that box, but it was nothing, just a fish. I laughed while watching it. Then I opened the comments section of that video where it was written that he is in the show where he is the brand ambassador of some kind of makeup brand and promoting it during that. He has so many advertisements, he is so popular. I said "wooww" to myself like a proud fan of him.
Then I read another comment where it was written that Xu Yuan bao is so hardworking, he is still sick but doing his work so effortlessly. The moment I read that comment, I backed out from the comment section and immediately checked the posting date of this post—and it was yesterday's date. So yesterday he was still sick, maybe even today he is still sick. I said these things to myself and completely got lost in my thoughts.
Then the bus stopped and I reached my dorm. I got into my dorm and saw that Wang Ruoxi was not here. Then I opened my phone and was about to call her and ask where she was, when suddenly a notification popped up on my phone on WeChat and it was from her only. It was written: "I'll be late as I'm going on a date with Wen Qi and don't forget to eat your dinner from your adopted mother."
I smiled while reading it. "Adopted mother." I call her my adopted mother as she behaves like Mama sometimes. Then I looked down on the floor for a moment. Then I changed myself into my comfortable night pajama dress and sat in front of my laptop as I was writing an application for the leave that they asked me to do. After writing for 5 minutes, I completed it and sent it to the head of the department.
Then I closed the laptop and got into my bed. Tomorrow again is a shooting day. I need to be early tomorrow. I need to come there before him, otherwise it doesn't look good that an ordinary girl like me reaches late and the superstar Xu Yuan reaches early. It doesn't sound good. Before getting into my sleep, I prayed that please make him well. He is in flu due to the changing weather in China, and he didn't even get the time to rest or sleep because of his tight schedule. He is very hardworking and committed towards his work. Please make him well soon. You make me ill, but not him. Not him, please not him. Reciting this as my prayer, I drifted into sleep. The night got colder in Shanghai as the night deepened.
Then the morning hit the window. Today we can say that winter has now completely started hitting Shanghai. I think this year winter will be much colder in Shanghai than any other year. I said this while getting ready for the shoot. It's 8:45 am but still looking like evening. Then I reached the door and said, "Bye bye, Ruoxi." She said, "Bye, have a nice day Shiza," while sleeping. I smiled faintly and then went out of the dorm.
I reached the set on time today. I think he didn't reach early today, but the moment I entered the set, I saw him. Oo he reached early again today, I said while biting my nails. He was looking calm and composed, just like always, distributing peace everywhere. He was busy on his phone. I think he must be reading something important on his phone. Then without getting noticed, I moved toward my room and closed it. No one was here and I didn't see that assistant today. What was her name… ooo I remember it now. Yes, Yang Lulu.
"What happened to you Zhao Shiza, you are forgetting each and everything. If this goes like this then that day will definitely come when you forget where you have to go," I said to myself. Then my costume dress was already here in my room and I changed into it.
I stepped out of my room slowly wearing the costume for the shoot and then I saw there was no one. I got a little panic. Then at that moment, a voice came—and I have never listened to this voice. It's not familiar to me. It's neither the director's voice nor anyone else's who is on set. It's really a strange voice that I heard.
"Please come straight ma'am with me, I'll guide you. The next scene is outdoor." A man came toward me while saying this. He was wearing a black t-shirt and black trousers, a formal dress. I didn't ask much as I understood that he must be from the crew only, and I followed him.
Then I reached the location. It was outside some grocery store. "Ma'am, our today's scene will be shot inside the grocery store only." I nodded my head and said nothing. Then I saw a little far away, Xu Yuan standing and reading his dialogue script. My Mr. Heart stopped a little while seeing him standing there. He is so soothing to my eyes. I can't express the calmness he gives me just by seeing him. The world faded and turned silent. I had forgotten myself. The only thing was that I was just seeing my whole calmness standing there.
Then my thoughts broke by someone saying, "Ma'am, this is your script, please read it. We are having a scene within 10 minutes. I hope this much time is enough for you to learn the dialogues." He said this very sweetly to me. I just nodded my head again. I think the whole day I am going to do only this—just nodding my head.
Then I started reading the lines of my script by walking here and there outside the grocery store. I got so busy learning my lines with closed eyes, saying the lines like my character's lines are: "I know this is wrong but I'll still do this. You can't stop me. I know it's hard but now I have gained a lot of courage to do this and no one can stop me." I was just learning these lines and continuously saying them while walking with my closed eyes and holding the script tightly in my hands.
Then I hit something—I don't know what it was, just something like a rock, a hard rock. My eyes were still closed. I didn't have the courage to open them. But after a few seconds when I opened my eyes, no one was there. But when I looked to the right side, I saw him—Xu Yuan walking there while talking to his assistant. It was him. Who else could it be other than him? It's our first interaction since the day we met. It's been 2 days since we started shooting for the drama. I know it's little but it's much for me. I don't know how he wakes up that fan girl in me again and again. Every time. I really don't know how… I said all this while getting overwhelmed with what he said.
Then a voice came: "The shot is ready! Come everyone, take your positions, we are about to shoot the scene…"