His fingers are touching my thighs, but his eyes hold no emotion for me to tell his thoughts. It’s unusual.

“Cassian?” I press my hands on his chest, but not in a way to resist him, but to feel his heart’s rhythm.

“I told you it's all about the primal instinct,” he says, bringing his lips to touch mine.

My hands let go off his chest as our lips touch, our tongue having a taste of each other. It feels different, not like it used to be.

He withdraws himself from me, and our eyes are locked to each other.

I have so many questions to ask him, but his eyes on me seem to answer them. His face… he was the werewolf who'd stood beside them, and had chased me out of my home.

“It's true… Cassian, it’s true…” My voice is shaky as I step back from him.

“What's that about?” He asks, feigning ignorance of what I mean.

“My parents… you killed them… you stood beside their bodies!”

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Things took a shift after Liam's betrayal of selling me out to Alpha Cassian. It awoke every thought and trauma I'd buried within me, having them come alive to haunt me.

Cassian wanted my essence for his curse, to perform a bloodshroud that was supposed to be his cure and the end of me. But he didn't go on with it. Strangely, he called me his mate. How was that even possible since I was a human and he was a werewolf?

I’d thought a human like me couldn't become a werewolf, but Cassian wouldn't let go of his claim.

I felt darkness and chaos around him, but soon, I started to fall for him. I wanted to keep everything behind me even though the memory of my parents’ death still haunted me.

But at the new leaf I was about to turn, I discovered Cassian must have killed my parents, soaked himself with their blood, and chased me out of my home.

How was I supposed to go on with this revelation?

I'm admitting to having lost control of myself. I can't think like I should, but I'm driven by an urge—an urge that goes far above my rational thinking.


It couldn't let me remain in Velora's room. But I don't know where it's leading me. Cassian's room might appear to be the end point, but it isn't. It's just a pathway.


It's like loud drums, heavy bells, loud trumpets. I can't resist.


"I should confirm… the patterns wouldn't be a mere co-existence."


I've not thought about how I'm supposed to escape the gammas watchful eyes in order to land myself in Cassian's room. But I must get in. The gammas who might be walking around can't stop me.


I know Velora is mad at this. All this wouldn't have become a reality if she'd told me all I need to know.


After three more steps, I feel another hand grip me from behind. "Elara."


I stop, turning back to see who it is. "Ssbrina."


Chapter 18 - Sneaking into Cassian's room