23. "JUST SO YOU KNOW.. YOU'RE LOVED"
I know you can handle it all on your own, I'm not tryna play a role of your boyfriend, I'm just tryna take position and remind you in all kinds of ways that you're loved by me.
I'm guessing sometimes it feels like nobody gets you, sometimes it feels like it's all fucking heavy on your shoulders, especially when you don't got a warm shoulder to cry on but you can always text me, I'm always free to listen when you're calling because you're loved, just so you know.
You don't have to deal with it all on your own, I'm not tryna say I can make it all disappear but I can be the safe space for you to unload your stress, we don't even have to talk about what's going wrong in your life, we can use this as your escape room, where you can forget about somethings while we talk about whatever, like we used to.
I'm guessing you're ready to take it all on your own, not when you got somebody who genuinely cares about you, somebody who loves you, I know I'm far from you but luckily we got these phones for connection, just text me and I'll be here to listen or keep you company.
You can deny me if you want but just so you know, you are loved by me, I care about you and I wanna see you at your best, I wanna be there for you, however that is, I wanna be there for you.
24. "YOU MAKE ME BETTER"
From the day that I set my eyes on you, a large cloud of love rained onto me and filled my heart up, it was like I had found the missing piece, you came me into my messy life and you gave me reasons to be better. I wish I had found you now because I'm better than who I was when I was 19 years old, I wish I could rewind time but I can't, unfortunately.
You give me a reason to be better, it's like I can't afford to let you down, I really could be out there, doing with the most with meaningless girls but being in this room that'd filled with our best times, writing about you is way better. This may not count for nothing but I never meant to hurt you, even though I never raised my hand and voice at you, I was draining and pushing you away in other ways, for that I'm sorry.
From the moment we shared a conversation, I knew that you're the girl that I need to be with, I don't give a single fuck if it's been a year since I saw you, I still believe that I was meant to love you and if that means I'll always love you at a distance, then let it be.
You make me better, you make me wanna be the best version of myself, you make me wanna show you how much progress I've made after working on myself and I know this might not mean shit but girl I love you so much, you've got a safe space in my heart.
25. "A MOMENT"
Baby if I could get just a moment with you, I would make it count for a lifetime. First, I would thank God for that given moment, then I would silent every other thought and bring my existence all back to your presence.
I would gather my words together all perfectly, I would look right into your eyes for courage, hold your hand for my heartbeat to slow down and then I'd let my heart speak it's many written words.
I've written you thousands of love letters, that only my holy angels and the angels of love have witnessed. I miss you every damn day, I miss the way you'd look at me with your beautiful smile, I miss the way you smell and the way you take good care of yourself, I miss the way you speak, the way you keep your light bright, I miss your hugs, the way you grabbed my hand and kept me safe.
I was 19 when I found you, I was 20 when you left me and I'm 21 as I still love you the same as I did at first, it's really unfortunate that I might never get to see forever with my first love.. I'm done writing.
26. "BETTER LOVE"
I don't wanna tell you a lie about how perfect I'm gonna be, I don't wanna sell you sweet dreams but I can definitely promise you that I will love you better, treat you better, I repeat, I will love you better.
Every night I will read you something before you sleep, every morning I'm gonna check in on your heart, mind and soul, if there's something stressing you, I will offer my comfort to make you feel better and if you don't wanna talk about it, I'm still gonna stay with you until you feel better. I can't give you perfection but I can definitely love you better.
I'm gonna be doing the things that make you feel loved and special, I'm gonna take 3 hours from my 24 hours and spend it all on you over conversations, laughs and comfort.