"THAT'S ALL SHE CAN OFFER"
Here I am trying to rewrite our story, make this part the beginning of our second try in this thing but a distant friendship is all she can offer at this point. She's reminding me that I'm still the little boy who's lovesick on his first love, it ain't my fault that my heart decided to fall in love and it ain't my fault that I'm wired like this, to have this kind of love that doesn't die easy, I come to her bearing affection but all she can offer me is a distant friendship.
My nigga judges me, he said there's a lot of girls that I can have but instead I'm stuck up on a girl that I haven't seen in over a year. My mother saw her name on my screen last night, she almost dropped her jaw and then she said "You're still talking to her?", I could see her unsaid words in her eyes and my grandmother says she'd love to see me with a young lady but I'm just a troubled son.
Here I am writing the beautiful books, inspired by the same girl that everybody says I should let go of, I need somebody who's been in my shoes to come and tell me how did he manage to let go of that one girl he couldn't stop loving. I come to her bearing good loving and all she can offer me is just a stupid friendship.
I know that there is more for me out there, I know that I'm too young to be living like this but I'm just troubled, I can't make up my mind when it comes to letting the past go and starting over on a new slate.
I'm coming with an intention to rebuild our bridge and all she can offer me is a distant contact.. Alright.
"PLAYBOY"
No more playing a sucker for love, there's so much more for me out there, everytime I leave the house, I attract so many eyes, pretty girls notice me and maybe it's time that I entertain them just like I used to when I was a playboy. I know that I said that I was gonna keep this love until I'm done loving her but I'm done circling my life around this girl.
I'm going back to being the playboy that I was before I fell in love, I let myself believe in something that wasn't meant for me and then I went on to let this heartbreak turn me into a low esteemed fool, who just can't see himself with anybody else but the same girl who never loved his ass, what the fuck was I thinking?
No more playing a sucker for no love, I'm going back to having girls around me, I know that I said that I'll be writing this until I'm done loving you but I'm moving on now, just like she did a long time ago.
I've got a life to live , instead I spent almost 2 years trying to save a love that didn't even fucking exist, I'm done loving that girl.