You know something, Folks?
I've been feeling quite heavy this past week, you know?
It sucks.
A lot.
And not in any of the good ways.
Bah, lol.
Such is life, and it could always be worse.
I am grateful to be alive to even talk/vent about it here with you, lovely folk.
I won't keep you, I know what you've come for, lol.
The juicy, meaty bits that cling to the bone.
Or.
OR. OR. OR!
The...well-seasoned, flavorful...veggie bites?
I DON'T KNOW!
I ain't opposed to meat, nor do I judge anyone who is, lbvs.
I will see you all back here soon enough, yeah?
Enjoy!
(Slappin' on my buttons and flippin' on my knobs.)
-Sploorps off to the past.-
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May 12, 2019.
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Dear You.
I can't cry at the moment...I'm at work.
It's hard not to...
The viewing and funeral were beyond beautiful.
XXXXX was honored with several medals from the President of the United States for his services.
He also had an amazing 21-gun salute.
The world has lost a great man...
-Dad.
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-Sploorps back to the future.-
-Let's start by saying this:
My stepfather was not a very "good" person in all of his racism towards me and my siblings...
Nonetheless, I will not discredit his service to the world during his time in the U.S military.
-He was given the traditional Three-Volley Salute, not a 21-gun Salute, as was improperly stated in my journal entry.
I don't have stories of his acts of valor or whatnot, but I am sure that someone does, and that maybe there are even people alive who are even thankful to him.
I... struggle with that.
He was a pretty intricate part of my childhood, you know?
He helped "raise" me in some capacity...
Bah.
We all know how I feel about that.
-I was pretty torn up over his passing for a while, and I am sure that it was due to not having my own father around.
He was the only example of a father that I had ever had.
I kind of think that -in some ways- he may have inadvertently inspired a form of self-hatred within that young me...
I couldn't understand how he could "love us" yet say the things he did when he thought we weren't around to hear.
Bah, again.
The service was indeed beautiful, I can't disagree with young me about that one.
lol.
I will see you all back here soon for the next one, yeah?
This little book only has so many more entries in it, Folks.
Let's see where it goes, shall we?
Let's see if you do exist...
Till next time: Safe travels, Kid.
You as well, Folks.
And as always:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Redd.