The air started to get colder .
And oneday my brother visited again. I was lying on the bed , pretending to sleep.
He called me in the softest voice he could manage . I did not want to meet his eyes . I did not want him to see me like this .
" Sister , please, won't you look at me ?," he asked . He was crying , I knew that . But could I console him when I was in this state ?
" Sister ?," he asked again and then whispered," I am sorry for being such a bad kid to you ."
He was not bad . It was me who was incompetent.
All those words jumbled inside me , but somehow I found no strength to get up and speak. As if a invisible rope was holding me down to the bed .
" Take care , goodbye sister ."
He left .
Tears rolled down my eyes . I stayed quiet on the bed for an hour . There was nothing I could do . Even summoning the sheer will to sit up on my bed , was now impossible.
After half an hour more , I finally managed to get up .
At the side of my bed , there was my card , a pair of pictures of our family and my brother's phone - the one he had been using since he had come back to the country ..
" Was someone here ?," the door opened again and Liam walked in. He already looked tired after his work , he still had come to the hospital to take care of me for the night .
For the past week , he had started asking me random questions , having one-way conversation like that when I would even say nothing and it was just him speaking all by himself.
It had almost become a habit of him . Most of time , I doubted if he even awaited for an answer from me .
I stared at my card and the phone - he really had left ...
My brother ...he was just a boy , where would he go all by himself.
Slowly my memories started returning . He has been blaming himself . Each time Jasper came to visit , he was talking how he was the reason that I had turned into this .
" It would be better if I had not existed ," he had said .
" Goodbye sister ."
The chill ran down my spine . Horror clasped my throat . I wanted to scream but I could not .
No , no ,no , why did I feel like this ?
" Liam ?," I called my husband.
In a second he was sitting before me , his hands trembled as they reached for mine ," Yes ?"
He was not even breathing , worried he would scare me again .
I tried to calm myself down , concentrating on his blue eyes ," He - is -leaving ."
" Tell me ," he urged .
Maybe because I had not had a conversation for a long time ,I was having difficulty to make a full sentence ," He -"
" Take your time ," Liam's warm palms squeezed mine .
But we did not have time .
In frustration, I picked up my card and the phone ," Have - to - find him ."
He should know . He had seen me give the card to Jasper.
He noded and stood up and started calling someone.
For the first time since I woke up ,I felt the anxiously bubbling up. I did not like feeling this. That was exactly why I did not want to wake up .
" They are watching the security cameras," Liam's voice was gantle ," We can find him soon ."
" He - ," I hiccupped trying to form a sentence, thankfully the more I talked , the easier it was getting ," He has no one ."
My brother Jasper Dane , who lived like a dog for nineteen years under my father's guidance, were never allowed to have friends or talk with anyone but us .
He was truly alone out somewhere.
My baby brother ...
" I need to go ," I tapped on Liam's arm , desparate," I need to find him."
It was like I was waking up from a dream . Or like I was getting sobber ?
How could I let him go like that ?
" Do not worry I will go with our security team," Liam told me gently ," We will find him soon."
I shook my head ," I need to go , please ."
Sitting here for more seconds felt like a betrayal to my brother .
" Julia , you are weak now ," Liam's grip was firm on my arms . His eyes were full of worry .
" Just this once ," I grabbed his face ," Please , please , help me ."
I had never wanted anything in our marriage. I had wanted nothing from him . Not love , not his presence - for the last four years .
Most of my spendings were from my own card where I would earn my own salary from my work .
Only thing we had shared was his house . A house , where I lived like a guest .
Even when Sunshine corporation would help in our campaign or any news article, I would pay back for months in fixed deposit.
He never felt like he was mine . So all he owned was not something I deserved.
But I was desparate now . I could not let my ego to shut me up . I knew that Liam Anderson could help me .
" Please ," my voice trembled as I begged him.
" How can I say no to you ?," his eyes seemed to melt as he leaned in and kissed my forehead ," This will be very hard for you ."
He picked me up like a doll in his arms and started walking . Startled I wrapped my arms around his neck so I would not fall .
As we rushed out of the room Liam shouted ," Get us caps and masks ."
Soon we were armoured with the petty disguise . But it did not matter much such we were taking the car .
Half a dozen of cars were waiting for us at the parking lot . Liam had kept his promise . He had called the security team of Sunshine corporation to look for Jasper .
One of them , the captain came beside us to talk about the possible routes we could check.
I stared at the sun that was blindingly bright in the sky . When I looked back at my husband, I realised that he was sweating so much . The water rolled down his neck marking down the perfect muscles as it reached his shirt .
I put my sleeves on his neck to wipe them off .
He looked down at me . I could not really see his expression under the mask and cap . But the way he holded me close to him told me about everything I needed to know .
I placed my head on his shoulder . "Thank you ,"'I whispered.
" It is what I am supposed to do ," he said nonchalantly, giving me a squeeze among his arms .