It felt like ages since I had been outside like this .
I watched the bustling crowds going about their day ,feeling like it was almost unreal . In my world that was locked under a towel every evening , nothing like this ever existed .
My body was healing but every inch of me ached . I was too weak to even hold up my head for a long time .
I searched through the road for any signs of my brother even though I knew that it was unlikely that I would find him like this .
Liam was on his phone all the time while one of his arms wrapped around me even when I was wearing the seatbelt. Maybe he was scared that I would fall off the seat in anyway .
The sky turned orange hue . I was losing my mind there .
But suddenly Liam shouted ," Change the direction , taken the 28 B.H lane at the next turn ."
He was instructing the driver . I perked up , searching his eyes for answers .
He gave a solid nod . I gasped in relief . They had found him , they had found my brother .
Every second felt like a waste of time in the car . Even though we were breaking multiple traffic rules while we drove , I felt like it was fair .
I was nervous. I did not know how to face Jasper . What if he hated me now ? What if seeing me breaks him ?
I wondered through the endless questions with just one answer - in anyway I had to reach him . He was my brother . And I had to go to him.
It felt as simple as that .
We found him at the east side of Yan River . I immediately recognised the place . The bridge that connected two sides of the river was a famous place for people to jump .
There were police patrols in every half an hour , on the railing there were numbers of helpline calls and quotes like ' YOUR LIFE MATTERS '
" JASPER!," I shouted his name even before the door of the car was opened for me . This was a very bad place for him to be there .
Liam helped me out . Shifting my weight on him , like he was walking a child .
My brother came running towards me ," Why ? Why are you outside the hospital?"
I left Liam and started running . The first step sent me to the ground , my legs felt like two aliens who had no clue how to walk.
Jasper caught me midway ," Are you crazy or what ?"
" WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE ?," I hit his arm .
He looked away . His ears turning red in embarrassment," I-"
"What ?!"
" I thought that I was such a nuisance to you-"
" So you wanted to JUMP OFF A BRIDGE ?"
He started crying like a child . I froze . He was just grown in his body . Inside he was still a child .
" If not for sponsoring my abroad studies , you would have never married so young . If not for me you would have never gotten into the scandals , " he said in a trembling voice .
All the little things that I thought that he would never noticed ,he never missed any of them.
" You put up with our family only for me and my mother . You could have run. You could have gone to somewhere safe . But you stayed for me. I- I thought that I was an adult now and I can take care of myself but if not for me , you would not have suffered like that ," he was bawling his eyes out .
Anger took hold off me .
" WHO SAID I DID ANY DAMN THING FOR YOU ? IT WAS FOR ME ? I CAN NOT GET ANY FUCKING REST CAUSE I AM SO SO WORRIED ABOUT YOU! IT IS ALL ON ME ! IT IS BECAUSE I CAN NOT LIVE IN PEACE IF I LEAVE YOU ALONE !," I shouted at him ,"YOU ARE MY FUCKING RESPONSIBLITY ! YOU DON'T GET A SAY ON IT "
He was quiet for a second and hugged me and started crying loudly again ," I am so sorry sister . I kept wasting your money -"
" That is my fucking money !,"I hissed at him ," I will decide if it is wasted or not ! You have not gotten old enough to judge what I do ! It is my choice . A kid should eat and study ! How dare you act like an adult !"
I could not really hit him cause he was the one holding me so I looked for my husband," Liam ! Can you help me for a second?"
" Ye-yes ," he stuttered . I understood that he was surprised. He had never seen me shouting so much .
My brother let go of me as soon as my husband reached for me .
" THIS USELESS BRAT ! WHATEVER HAPPENED WITH FATHER IS BETWEEN US ADULTS! WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU GET THE RIGHT TO DECIDE AND JUDGE WHAT I DO AND WHAT I DON'T!," I grabbed Jasper's hair , he went ," Aaaaa , it hurts , tap ! Tap !"
" YOU WANT TO JUMP OFF A BRIDGE? LET'S ALL FUCKING JUMP !,"I was burning in rage .
For whom I had welcomed myself in a hell ! Why couldn't he understand me at all ? What was the use of him growing up if he was going to act like a brat ?
" JASPER DANE ! YOU DON'T GET TO FUCKING DECIDE ANYTHING BY YOURSELF," I roared ," THE BIKE ! YOU ARE NOT RIDING IT ANYMORE! I AM TAKING IT AWAY ."
" Not the bike !," he wailed .
" Why ? YOU WERE GOING TO JUMP OFF THE FUCKING BRIDGE !," I reminded him ," YOU KNOW WHAT ! I WILL GET THESE MEN TO THROW THAT DAMN BIKE OFF THE BRIDGE !"
My brother was doing his best to kneel and cower," Please , the bike - I love it so much ."
"AnD YuO DoN't LovE YoUR FUcking LIfE ?," my voice broke , I could not shout any longer ," Is that cheaper than that DAMN PIECE OF MEtaLS ??"
Nothing in the world could quech my anger . The audacity this brother of mine had to decide this for himself.
I was not letting him off hook this time .
But my body had other plans . Slowly it was getting heavier . I was getting sleepy too .
" Julia ," my husband offered a peace treaty," Why don't we all go back now ? We can have this conversation tomorrow again ."
I reluctantly agreed to his offer .